End of semester

It was a pretty long semester to me. I learned alot. but I believe that I still need to go more than I imagine. I could say how much I learned through this semester. Now, I became more comfortable giving medications or saying what those are for the patients, doing physical assessment, and taking vital signs. Also, I can go back to read chart and try to gather all informations and the reason why my patients have a certain type of medications. I remember the days at nursing home or my first day in hospital. I did not know what to do next or did not know how I can make comfortable to my patients. That's the reason why somtimes my resisdent was angry with me at nursing home. Confidence are improtant. Until now, I could say I did not know what nurse really was. Maybe I still don't know exactly, even if I say I know what is a nurse. If I know God is always with me amd my patients, everything will be fine.

Communication

# 7

All nurses and patients are different, but they are all human. In the last few weeks at hospital, I experienced many things from nurses and patients. I am sure this is not everything I will see in the future. However, I had tough times with my nurse and patients in the past weeks of my clinical.

With nurses: My nurse, who had high expectations, angry with me whenever I did something different or did not do well. She went to my clinical instructor right away and told everything I did not do well. I understood that my nurse wanted me to be professional but it was too much at the beginning. At the same day, I saw a nurse who swears to her patient because the patient swears to her. I understood why she became angry with her patient, but I was shocked by the nurse's speaking. I know there are many nice nurses out there.
With Patients: All my patients I picked were not easy to communicate. Since my biggest problem is communication in English which is my second language, it was tougher. One patient was ignoring me because I was a nursing student, not actual nurse. Another patient was easily mad at me. I tried hard to talk to them but they were just angry with me.

All people communicate differently like my nurse and my patients. There are many ways to say sentences which have same meaning. After I put so much effort to communicate with my patients, I figured out they had reasons to be offended by me. They had a fear or felt abandon because they are also human too. Good communication will gain many opportunities to approach with nurses or patients. I have been thinking that communication could be influenced by Christianity. I believed that Christian could be more thoughtful and gracious. As Christians, we have to listen first before we speak something to them. Even if we would be angry with them due to their negative attitudes, we could take care of them as we do to ourselves.

In heaven

#6

Last Wednesday, which was my last clinical week of long term care, my resisdent passed away at night. On Thursday morning, I went to the floor to see my resident and someone took off her name tag at outside the wall. It looked not right. I asked someone who passed her room what is going on to her. He said that my resisdent went to heaven last night. I thought he was joking to me at the moment because I coudn't believe I cannot see her anymore. I didn't know how to deal with losing patient. I had a similar experience eairlier but she was alive at that time. but now its different situation. She is really gone!
I thought that how come my resident didn't say goodbye to me and left. My first patient passed away. How weird it is but it happened to me. She always told me that thanks to God that he brought me there for her. I missed her smile and the time I spent with her. I was little depressed but I couldn't go down emotionally. At the same time I was glad that she will be happy with new body in heaven. I learned how to deal with saying goodbye to my patient who I put so much heart in. I think this applies to all people who work at medical parts. I might have more challenges to meet those kinds of situations in the future. However, I don't want to see more of those becuase it is sad. I learned how I could deal with the emotion which lost the patient. The answer will be praying to God and thanks to God having the patients in the heaven if they are believers. Bless them.

Life and Death

#5
During the second week of clinical, I spent much time with my resident. Before I gave her morning care, she was having short of breath for a moment. I was little panic because I wasn't ready to take the situation. I checked everything I could do, but I couldn't do many things for her because I was nervous and didn't have much knowledge yet. I thought I was going to make her die. I went out to call nurse and she came to make my resident to be calm down. I just had an experience having life and death. Also, I learned how to deal with the situation.
After the situation was happend, I was thinking about life and death. What is life and death? It is just a little thing that makes huge difference. All nurses or doctors try to save their patients' lives in every seconds and even this moment while I am writing. I don't know how I can accept the death of the patient. There could be a lot of arguements about life and death in the world becuase life is really valuable gift from God. As I am a Christian, I better need to pray for the patients first.

First week of Clinical

#3
I've been really great experience on the first week of clinical. I never had experience at clinical before. It was just amazing how God created me as a care giver. Before I arrived to the clinical, I was a little bit nervous. I wasn't sure how I could take care of the resident. I did not know how I was going to make a conversation with my resident.
It was time that my resident need to get up and be ready for breakfast. My CNA asked me to check my resisdent's full vital signs. I started to get nervous. I tried to remember how I did when I checked out for vital signs. I took my resident's blood pressure, temperature, pulse, respiratory, and oxygen saturation. When I tried to talk to my resident, she started to open her mind to me. It was amazing that I used my skills I learned to real resident. At the end of the day, my resisdent said that she was happy to meet me. I felt that God taught me great things at school. Even if I was in nursing school for only 5 weeks and crazy busy to do homeworks, I learned some skills from nursing school so that I could apply to my resident. I need to learn more and more about nursing; I want to take care of more people who needed me.

Consecration

# 2
On September 29th, I had a consecration service which was brought my heart to God as a junior nursing student. Before I had concecration, I've been thinking many things about consecration. I used to say when I become a nurse, I will work for God or I will live for God as a missionary nurse. However, consecration made me to think more than that. Consecration wasn't simply express with one word or one sentence; it was more than my own thought. wherever I am or whatever I do, God was there for me. He knows everything about me, even the things only I know. It was just touched my heart. How awesome and great God is! I am studying as a nursing student for you, even if study nursing is not easy for me. I praise you, Lord. I am yours!

Rejoice in the Lord always. I say it again; Rejoice! Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Philippians 4:4-5

Introducing myself

Hi, I'm Shinhye Choo from South Korea. I decided to come to Northwest Universtiy because studying in english will give me more opportunity to accomplish my future plan. I want to be a missionary nurse at somewhere out of my country. I hope that I can be a nurse and help sick people with all my heart!